Spouse of Cancer Victim

My journal of this journey continues. At this time we have been told there is no other treatment that can be done. We are to go get his blood checked Monday Wednesday and Friday then if there is a need for it we go to the hospital and he gets transfusions. Yesterday we were there from 11am to 7:30 pm as he received two units of red and one unit of platelets.

The days are long for him. He looks so tired. The family struggle to stay strong is ongoing and very difficult. We have a 18 year old daughter that struggles with it and fortunately has a wonderful support group of friends and fantastic teachers. She is supportive and so grown up for a 18 year old girl. I have a wonderful support group of friends as well. They are always asking what they can do, come go to lunch or dinner. Just staying connected. We feel very blessed in that respect.

We watch and wonder how much longer this will go. We feel he is trying to make his life journey last until our daughter graduates from High School in 4 weeks. I am not sure that is going to be a reality, but he is very tough and strong willed.

At night you relive the life you have had with him. Knowing you did a lot, experienced a lot that had you waited for retirement, it would not have happened. A word to the wise, Live Life now, don’t wait until you can afford it or until retirement. The times we had fishing, snowmobiling, boating, skiing, coastal trips and so much more live in our hearts and memories. Cancer can’t take that from us. The walk’s on the beach, the riding the slopes at Yellowstone Park with our sleds. Those are there for ever more. Those I relive as the night turns to morning. We were blessed.